For those looking to learn...

Are youlooking for ways to "become" anorexic or bulimic? Before you continue on this road, and consider "getting" an ed, ask yourself some questions:

-Do you want to wake up every day for the rest of your life hating yourself and wishing that you didn't exist?

-Do you want to cry, every time you step on the scale, because it's never enough, even when you're losing?

-Do you want to stand in front of a mirror, vainly trying to see what other people see, and not see it, and cry, because you don't know what's happened to you anymore?

-Do you want to feel like you're killing yourself, but feel powerless to stop it?

-Do you want to reach the point where you know you're killing yourself, and don't care anymore?

-Do you want to throw up blood, stare at it, and keep throwing up, even though blood is a bad sign, because you simply don't care anymore?

-Do you want to sit, crying, in the hallway of your home, because you know you didn't get everything up, even though all you've tasted for the past half-hour is stomach bile?

-Do you want to ruin your teeth?

-Do you want to contemplate suicide every day because you've grown to hate who you are more than you've ever hated anything else in your life?

-Do you want to feel all of your dreams crumbling around you, because you've handed everything over in your life to some blank, bitter driving force?

-Do you want to come to the horrible realization that your control is controlling you?

-Do you want to look back, after years, and think, "what have I done with my life?"only to realize that the answer is nothing?

-Do you want months of your life to disappear into oblivions of weight and exercise? To look back and remember nothing else?

-Do you want everything that you ever cared for to disappear?

-Do you want to die?

If you can answer yes to every one of these questions, than an eating disorder is the thing for you. If not, then get out now. This isn't a way to "fix" your life, or to make things better. It's a way to make things worse. Sure, you'll lose weight, but you'll also lose everything else.

Please reconsider.

[a million thanks to the lovely Dominique for this.]